Capture your Grief. Day 1. Sunrise Dedication 

  Maryland 7:06am
I woke up to rain. So I went outside already annoyed. Today was supposed to be a perfect start to this month of dedication to my sons. Instead, it didn’t go as planned. Nothing about my pregnancy went as planned. The plan was to have my sons. The plan was to be getting ready to celebrate Langston’s first birthday. That plan failed. The next plan should see me with 3 month old Lucas experiencing first smiles and rolling over. The plan was for the beautiful sunrise. The reality looks different. You know what though? There will be glorious sunrises to come. There will be successful pregnancies. The rainy days interrupt our plans. But there won’t always be rain. The sunrise is coming. 

Capture Your Grief 2016

I have been slacking on my writing. It feels like since we haven’t started treatment again (I’m going in for my screening US on the 12th),  I don’t know what to write about.  Today I stumbled upon JenJen06’s post about Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief project for October and it was just what I needed. It is more of a photo project I think but I am going to write with it. The photo I will share on social media probably but as this is still largely anonymous,my other thoughts will go here.  I like the idea of “mindful healing”. Sometimes it is easy to just ‘move’ through our grief; the bad days are bad and the rest of the days we just make it. I want to continue to heal. I want to honor the memory of my sons; I need to be whole for my future children.

Check out the link below and join me if you are interested!!

Capture Your Grief 2016