32 weeks 4 days 

I have been wanting to write but I have been so overwhelmed I haven’t known what to say. How did we get here? Are we really here? The feelings are so big and great. We have passed all the milestones.

I know I haven’t documented this pregnancy as much as I did with Langston and Lucas. I started a few times about week 24 to do weekly updates and couldn’t bring myself to it. This was for a few reasons: 

1. The fear. It still felt and feels like “maybe I will be back here in a few weeks with bad news”. You get to the point where you are tired of letting people down and tired of feeling like you’ve disappointed those who were excited. 

2. I haven’t wanted to complain. This pregnancy has been tough and I have always prided myself on being honest and open but I have felt guilty about writing about my aches and pains and such when I know SO many people would give anything to be where I am. That’s just one more of those things that pregnancy after loss brings; you feel so guilty when you’re not glowing and joyful and blissfully pregnant because this was LITERALLY what you prayed for. I’m glad I have a close friend who understands all this and lets me just say “I’m tired and this is hard” without feeling the need to beat me over the head with ‘this is a blessing’. 

So having said all of that here is the quick catch up: 

We officially have a c-section date. We meet our bundles of joy in exactly 30 days on August 11th. I will be 37 weeks on my scheduled c-section date. My TAC has held like a rock and I have had no cervical issues. My babies are gonna be little roly poly bunnies. At their last measurements they weighed 4lbs 12oz and 5lbs 5oz. For reference, average singletons weigh 3lbs 10oz at 32 weeks. My blood sugars have been in control so the doctor isn’t concerned that they are chunking up  because of the gestational diabetes. I on the other hand am still 10lbs less than I was when I got pregnant. That’s what happens when you’re still throwing up almost every other day due to acid reflux 😬😬 
My boss has been great and I’ve still been working from home; my last day is July 21 and after that I’ll just be sitting which sounds amazing. I feel like a house and moving isn’t the easiest. So I’ll just sit till I hatch 

It feels good to say everything is done. Bags are packed. Car seats are in. Rooms are prepped. Hospital tour is done. Pediatrician selected. I literally have my nail, hair and wax appointments to make sure I’m not a hairy fuzzy mess and embarrass my husband lol and we are ready!! 

Ok this got really long but I wanted to catch you guys up. Also: here is a pic…because why not. Guess this is me kind of breaking my annonymity? Meh 😊

14 thoughts on “32 weeks 4 days 

  1. Ahhhh so brill u put a pic up!! So nice to put a face to the blog! You’re looking amazing!

    So so happy you posted.. and everything’s going well (for the most part.. obv I’m not referring to the pukey times)

    Complain all you want…we’re all just glad to hear from you!

    Good luck hun, 30 days is gonna FLY IN!! Xxx

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  2. Oh girl!!! You are SOOOO beautiful!!! I am so happy for you. And seriously. Complain. Every other pregnant woman does it and you have just as much right to do it as everyone else. IT IS HARD! Worth it, but doesn’t mean it doesn’t really suck at times! Especially with GD, I know I had a really hard time with that.

    29 more days! I am so excited for you!! They will be here before you know it! Do you have everything ready for them?

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  3. You may not feel it, but you really do look glowing and wonderful AND HAPPY! It’s beautiful to see, and so very well deserved. I’ll be thinking of you next month and eagerly awaiting more updates. X

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  4. Hallelujah!! I’ miss so happy for you, and you look fantastic! Oh and I’ll be thinking of you in August, 11th, that’s when I graduate with my Master’s!! Such a happy day awaits in exactly a month!!

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