It is 1:15 am and I am eating gelato. I got “cleared” today by my OB so I should be in bed with Hubbins. It has been awhile; since the first cerclage was placed at the beginning of January I have been on pelvic rest. So I should be excited….but today I had to go buy spermicide because I am trying to not get pregnant. That is an entire mindfuck. What is my life right now? Also: the reason I can now have sex is because my baby is no longer here. None of this helps the mood. Eventually I’ll get there I’m sure. This post was really blunt…but that’s why I’m here…to be transparent right?