Well, I made it.
This weekend was tough. Friday I had my appointment calendar pop up reminding me of my anatomy scan.. I thought I had disabled it but I guess not. Saturday, Hubbins and I did Praise and Worship at church; it went well and while I did end up in tears once or twice, I overall kept it together. Sunday we were home and just relaxed. Today I ran some errands and puttered around the house and made dinner.
I’m starting to feel more like myself.
I have been working on the baby blanket and crocheted a hair bow and the cutest headband with a bow. It is kind of therapeutic I guess and I know so many pregnant people right now that someone is bound to have a little girl.
I have been doing my research on the TAC and honestly, I’m torn. I’m hoping that I’ll have more info after my MFM followup on the 7th but right now I don’t know about the TAC. Currently, I feel like I have 3 solid options: TAC, pessary and complete bedrest after 12 weeks, and just complete bedrest. I’m not considering another TVC.. didn’t work twice. No thank you. The TAC is a huge surgery and my biggest fear is that I will funnel past the stitch early and end up needing a c-section and still have no baby. It’s all scary stuff. Honestly, I’m just praying that God guide us in the decision and make it clear what we should do. This is all WAY far in advance but the researching and planning are giving me something to look forward to.