13 weeks and 5 days. That’s how far along I was when I went into labor and we lost our son. Today I am 11 weeks and 4 days and as week 13 inches closer, I can feel the anxiety growing in my stomach. It doesn’t help that it has been almost two weeks since I was able to see Baby Nugget via ultrasound on the 16th. I won’t get another chance till the 4th. I understand this is a blessing; I recently learned that certain insurances/health care systems cover a limited amount of ultrasounds whether you are deemed high risk or not. For the sake of my sanity, I am glad this is not the case. I keep telling myself that once I make it to Wednesday January 14th I will be more pregnant than I ever have been. That seems so far away.

Today, I am still pregnant.

I have faith in God that this pregnancy will end with me bringing home a healthy baby.

6 thoughts on “Apprehension

  1. As someone who’s also experienced the anxiety you’re dealing with now, I’m praying for peace for you and your family in these next weeks. And supporting your feeling of faith in God’s plans for you and your little one.

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