I love reading all the weekly updates on here that list symptoms and feelings and such. It makes me feel like I am part of everyone’s journey.
However, I am hesitant to do these for my own pregnancy because:
- What if something happens? That is my big one. I have the “What to Expect” Journal that I had started filling out for my son and although I have bought another one, I haven’t started writing down anything yet because I can’t bear the thought of having another incomplete book. I have all my sonogram pics so far just sitting in an envelope on the dresser for this same reason. Once I make it to 14 weeks, I will have been more pregnant than I ever have been and then maybe I may feel better about trying it.
- I still feel kind of guilty about this pregnancy. I feel like I can’t just ‘start over’ with this new baby…as if I just hit the reset button. I don’t know if that makes sense.
- My stomach is not cute. I have a pooch….well,,its a roll. I will never the one whose stomach is exposed for the mass populous to see. I also feel like because of my HUGE boobs, I’m going to make it to 7 months pregnant and still just look….fat. So the idea of belly pics aren’t really appealing to me. Even in this though, I’m conflicted. I don’t want to not document this pregnancy because of my own stupid self esteem issues.. meh.. thoughts.
Till I’m ready, keep the updates coming and I will live vicariously through all your little ones. 🙂